My Daughter and her little Sis, Plus what has been going on

Hi everyone.  I wanted to share with you this layout I created of my daughter Destiny and her Sister( her Dads youngest girl).  Destiny is on the right and her sister Rachel is the one on the left.  Rachel is only 12 and almost and tall and Destiny.

I used some Webster's Pages paper, the ribbon flowers and the flower is also from Webster's Pages.

I found this gorgeous wooden frame at Micheal's and painted it with Gesso,t he sprayed it with Homemade Glimmer Mist and then spongedon some Aqua ink to the frame until I got the color I desired. The Memories sticker I got from Hobby Lobby.

Blue Lace from DCWV.

I got this gorgeous Flower spray embellishment at Micheal's and from their Recollections Collection.

The Heart decorative paper is also from Webster's Pages and the Little butterfly sticker embellishments are also from Hobby Lobby and came in the same pack as the Memories Sticker.

My color ink is running out so it made the pic look so aqua looking.  Destiny did go this morning and get me some new ink as I needed all of them.

The big Fern die cut is from K&Company that I covered in Distressing inks and then sprayed with my homemade Glimmer Mist.

Here is a pic showing all the dimension to my page.  I love this pic of them and I should have more to share with you later, as she took some great pics when she was at her Dads last weekend.

I hope you all are having a great weekend.  My whole week has been TERRIBLE and completely Miserable.

Ok, so now on to why I have been so quite and just not myself this past week.

Monday I went for an Ultrasound I was 11.5 weeks. I had been having some very light spotting last weekend but with no pains.

Well when they did my ultrasound they found no heartbeat.  I left there and went to see my doctor.  I already knew something was TERRIBLY wrong as she was doing the ultrasound.  She didn't tell us anything  or even let us see the ultrasound screen.  When I walked  into the room at my doctors office he told me he had bad news, but I had already figured that out and cried like a baby the whole 30 minutes to my doctors office after the ultrasound.  My husband meet me to have the ultrasound and then drove me to my OB/GYN.

My doctor told me that the ultrasound showed no heartbeat and that the baby had quit growing at about 7 weeks.  So that mean't my baby had passed about a month ago.  

I then went to have blood work done to get ready for my surgery the next morning.  I went in at 5:30 am Tuesday morning to have a DNC and then have my tubes tied.  As I never want to have to go through this again.

All I can think is that the LORD has big plans for our family and maybe this happened to bring us all closer.  That is the only thing I can think of after me getting pregnant 7 years after my husband had a vasectomy, just to miscarry. 

I am doing better with each day and still in a lot of pain as I still have all this trapped air in my abdomen from having my tubes tied.

My youngest had the hardest time with it as she was the one who was the most excited.  She kept telling me it was her fault because she had been such a bad girl and didn't mind.  I had to keep telling her that it was nothing she or anyone else did it just wasn't mean't to be and that there was something bad wrong with the baby that was growing inside me that made it to where it just couldn't survive anymore.

I told her that God took it now to keep us from even more heartache and pain later as the baby would had never survived.

We are all doing a lot better, but it will take time to mend and come to terms with it all as it all happened so fast.

I know a lot of you have been worried to how I was doing and I just wanted to let you know so if I'm not around for awhile you know why.

Thank you for all your loving comments, concerns and loving thoughts.

Hugs:)

Angela